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    November 26

    Thxgiving

    It's thxgiving again, yet I still am not getting my answer for why been given if had destined to lose one day.

    Thats one of the most sarcastic jokes god ever made on us. Any ways, thxgiving day is coming, again on its way. This is one of the holidays that is supposed to be w/ family. I didn't have much feelings on it since my family were far away and the only thing that would cheer me up was about shopping around. But this year is a lil bit different, m spending it w/ my mom. She is, not one of many, just the one that i should be thankful the most. Thanks for giving me the life I am enjoying right now; thanks for always supporting me through my ups n' downs; thanks for all the understanding and tolerance toward my naive actions and thoughts; thanks for all the sacrifice you made for me n' for our family...... Thank God for giving my the chance of being your daughter. I'll pay my everything just for another split second of being w/ you and dad in the beyond. Be thankful for wut we had been given; be thankful for those wut would never get since we wont have to suffering from losing it in return.
    November 21

    i know you miss me

    its almost 5:00 in the morning, but m not even sleepy since i literally slept the whole passed friday.
    I have no idea why I started to skim over my recent emails.
    my heart was, once again, thrilling when I was reading my conversation w/ my dad.
    I can feel how bad he is missing me.
     
    "虽然不幸的婚姻各有各的不同,但幸福的婚姻是相同的.哈哈"----爸爸
    "那你是不幸啊,还是幸福啊?"
    "有了瑞我还有什么不幸福的,足够了. 真是头发越来越长,裤子越来越破,怎么幽默却越来越少,中美文化的差异. 幽2(一点也不可笑)"--- 加加
     
    he was right. its not funny at all. ill never make sense of long hair w/ pants. 
    he was calling himself in the nickname I gave him.
    im trembling, every part of me.
     
    November 15

    the past Friday, the 13th

    Fridays on the 13th been taken as evil days by most ppl.

    I just personally have a superstition with the number 13 in many ways.

    Maybe thats b/c I m forcing myself to neglect all that i dont like, turning it the opposite way.

    Subconsciously, I think I'm just picking out things that I want to see.

    as I always do.

    October 28

    ...

    why there're only 24 hrs for a day? who stipulated this! 
    i definately led a hectic life for the past couple of days. The answer is b/c of my procrastinative habit.
    I was dreaming that I can trace bk to a point so that I won't postponed doing what I should be doing (like what im doing now) any more.
     
    October 26

    Aquarius Horoscope

    I was always a trouble girl as in the way how I grown up. I have always been informed about this.
    But just shocked myself by finding out how contradictory a person I am.
     
    I deeply loved my parents so much since they are the only ppl that i can always go for and would never back off me. I got so much love for them but I never told them in a direct way. all what i ever told my mom was how much i hate about the way she speaks to me when she was expecting me to obay her "orders". I felt so sorry about many things to my parents. just failed to let the words out every sigle time. I am stubborn.
     
    The bad thing came out to be that my personality is genetic. my this refractory character is absolutely presented by heredity from my mom.
    I tried my best to understand her. she had always been a very stonger person, a powerful woman that eveyone listened to her in my family, followed her words in her company and in her every aspect of life. I found it is a very effecient way to get it solved by thinking from others' stand when something seemed hard to be understood for you. I never let her know thatI had forced myself this attempt either.
     
    I can see how much my mom tried to change her "conservative" ideas b/c of me; I can feel how hard my parents are trying just to give me a brighter future; I can understand how pure-hearted they are to wish their daughter a healthy happy life. To me, they are the only ones have supported me through out all my ups and downs in my life. they are always there, ready to give me a warm family where I can find protection and help when I messed up w/ sth. I do feel how much they love me, and I am crystal cleared about a lot more.
     
    As I always tell others, I am 100 percent a pure Aquiarius --- You know much about yourself and the world, but knowing everything can be an obstacle to your own happiness.  I'll take w/e good and bad as being an Aquarius --- yes weirdest; yes freaky, very much; yes uncatchable as well aloof and proud.  
     
    I'm not always optimistic, actually i pretty much am a pessimistic one. although those who do not know me that well think I love to laugh and smile. or maybe i got used to hide the dark side of myself. 
     
    "Aquarius can seem somewhat detached from personal emotions. It's not that you Aquarius don't have feelings; it's just that yours are different from most others. You dance to the beat of a different drummer."
     
    I'm an Aquiarius, I got all the characteristics, goods and bads, that comes as being an Aquarius.
    I am always the one that is very hard to be dealing w/.
    I only talk to ppl about stiff what I want them to know and hide all other parts which I think are not necessary to be known. 
    I can be very nice to ppl or be very mean and cruel since I have a venomous tongue.
    I can do everything in two contradictory ways. in which of these two altenative ways m going is all depend on if that i wanted to or i don't.
     
    I'm 21, i feel so lucky that to some extent m young and I'm still learning, about everything, from every aspect in my life. I still got  a long way to go, got a lot to learn to improve on.
    But I am who I am, I accept  where im at in life right now. My mom always advise i'm too young to be doing all these things that im dealing w/, and that's the reason why I got these problems and troubles I dont have to take. I can easily avoid all those by taking less responsibilities and being a lil more selfish. but she has no idea how i came to be this way in these three yrs away from her protection. 
     
    I have no regrets. Im not ashamed about who I am and what I had done. my past has made me a stronger person. some say im too young to be talking about experience and life. who can claim himself to be an experienced w/o past experiences. If I messed something up, I'll fix it, I'll take all the blame and w/e the consequence comes out to be. I'll learn from all these life lessons.
    I can't be a mommy's girl forever, althrough I never actually was
     
    I have a flimsy completism orientation. yes, m a impure completist.
     
    I love flowers, madly. Lavender, rose, bloomingdale and w/e dazzling. but no flower that never fades. as time passes by, they languishes slightly. blooms to me is just like girls to guys. I dont wanna see the moment it loss its shine.
     
    I love extreme colors, black n' white. but  i also have a lot things in any partern of pink. thats a weird match.
     
    I can be a vegetarian for quite a long time. sometimes i just wish i can finish a whole cow.
     
    I am absolutely a collectionholic. you can easily tell how much I am by informing how long that took me to collect all the Anna Sui perfume. 
     
    I can really spend days listing out all my contradictory points as being a pure Aquarius.
     
    I guess that's the route how I've come to the point in my life where I'm living at this moment. m not trying to change anything about myself. everyone judges, I understand. but  if you want to get to know me, plz leave all your judgements aside at this point. if anything really clashed w/ ur principles, I do give you options---either accept what im look like or distance away .
     
    I have no idea why these cynical thoughts flows out like water at 4:00 am when im supposed to be night dreaming w/ my mom. its such a peaceful night, wut the heck is wrong w/ me???
    September 01

    way bake into myself

    I hate to say this, but I still have to admit that I learned nothing about it through the entire thing after all these years but getting further away from being myself.
    let me be whoever whatever I am suppose to be.
    is this really that hard to achieve like a dream or sth?
    I seldom had a dream.
    neither on this, it's just maybe somehow my next target to work on to in line.
    Dream v.s Target feels the same way as Power v.s Authority.
    August 15

    all from a special 30 minutes

    finally got bk hm after a impressive flight experience. or I should say it as an agressive one?

    thanks to the gorgeous flight schedual, there's only one direct flight from Li Jiang to Beijing departs at 6 in the early morning everyday, we took a one stop flight transferring in Kun Ming.

    the first part was really a short trip from Li Jiang to Kun Ming which took only a lil more than 30 mintues. 30 sth minutes for a flight journey is like nothing, not even enough for a nap! to be exaggerated, when about to take off, it landed.

    for this time, it wasnt b/c of the limited time made me not falling asleep although I was really exausted from all the travelling. it was one of the the smallest air craft I ve been on, meanwhile, it was the first time ever in my life I felt how imortant that is to have my seat belt fastened during my flight trip~!

    there was a split second I felt the seat and my ass was indeed apart! w/o the seat belt, I must have reached the set-top! I rather to believe I had finished this special 30-minute long trip on a tractor if i were blinded since the flight was bounced along all the way as hell. maybe it was due to the small size of the plane and the strong air current flowing over the craft...who knows.

    I wont say I was scared. I was not to be honest. just subconsciously my heart started palpitating faster and ascending up to my throat. I believe I was definately one of the most peaceful ppl who did not over reacting. nobody can do nothing by scraming inexplicably.

    there was one second, a question bumped into my mind which got me thinking a lot and frustrated me out after afterwards.

    "what would u do if today is the last day u were above ground?"

    I listed  all those I want-to-do, need-to-do and have-to-do  but havent-yet-achieved things down in my mind. I was totally defenseless to accept such a freaking long to-do-list! out of my expection, I could finish a whole role of toilet paper if typing in Times New Roman w/ front size No.5 ! 

    I should thank to this half an hr, the first time ever I realized so much things need to be done asap. so much words better to be spoken b4 its too late. although it will never be too late to let those who cares about you know how much they weight in your mind and how much u love them.

    I believe for a thousand of times I had said this to you. just in case u forgot about it or might not belive in wut I told u, I love you, always will always been. 

    everything can possibly happen in a split second. if sth happened, it happened; if someone changed, he changed. i guess i counldnt do much about it, neither do i know wut to do. but there's always one and the only one thing i know i could do about.

    to cherish.  to cherish every minute I am spending here and there impressed me w/; to cherish everyone is around me and the one m being w/; to cherish w/e I am occupying...

    离开泸沽湖的第二天,天降暴雨,所有尚未离开的旅客被困在泸沽湖无法离开。

    原定参观虎跳峡的行程时间被提前,去往那里的一段盘山公路在原行程日期当天发生滑坡,一客车因躲闪滚落下的山石坠落山谷,全车20名旅客,16人死亡。我们又逃过一劫。

    大难不死,必有后福。

    不求会有后福,只愿所有人正在经历的每一秒都平安快乐.

     

    August 02

    dilemma

    cant believe in my eyes when watching at the date from my cellphone calendar.
    August the 3rd, 1:00 in the morning!
    18 days, 17 in acturate, left until my flight traveling bk to NY.
    unbelievable, almost 2 months passed by.
    i still can remeber the day comming bk hm and  finally saw my parents, after a 13 hrs trip on the plane, like yesterday.
    the excitement has not yet been weaken.
    maybe is b/c of my tight schedual that takes my attentions away from noticing the passing time.
    or its just my another "b4 leaving period" like the past 5 times.
    but for this first time ever, I really set myself into a dilemma.
    I couldnt just let the time together w/ my family n' my friends go that easy, meanwhile, I do want to go bk soon.
    m complaining about the linited time spending w/ my frineds whereas m counting down the days  I can actually see u again in my heart.
    just b/c I dont wanna miss any of u.
    dont wanna miss a thing.
    July 25

    at midnight

    time passes by so fast.
    50 days passed like it was yesterday.
    its indeed a fabulous summer so far.
    things are going well on the ways i desired to be.
     busy, tired, but to the fullest.
    everything is so far so good,
    just wanna share every piece of my life w/ someone.
    July 22

    ineradicable

    everyone has some ingrained thoughts n' views on some certain kinda things.
    I do too. 
    I know these thoughts definately will infiltrate through my words n deeds.
    my altitude towards those things might hurt those who cares about me.
    but since its deep-seated, i guess no one can really change in a short period.
    me neither.
    actually not b/c ppl cant, but simply b/c of not willing to.
    just like there r always things i dont want to believe. n' so do u.
    obviously, how come that can be called as bred-in-the-bone if its easily turned.
    although sometimes i agree to try change my mind, its still hard n' does need a long period of time.
    once a little something happened coincidently supporting me,  those thought r to be deppened.
    to u, to others r all the same.
    however hard others try, u will persist ur own opinion n' keep it deep in mind.
    guess i can try understand it since m in the same situation.

    melody

    Sexually Healing --- Elize

     

    I can fight it
    Oh baby I can move on
    Tell me what is going down
    Move with my body all round
    I know I've been here before
    Going for the healing out the door
    It's a feeling in my soul
    Coming like a tide is on the road
    It's the heat that makes me burn
    Going for the point of no return
    It's a fighter
    A desire
    Can get it out tonight
    And I want it
    Cause I feel it
    Burning deep inside

    I'm checking out the moon is right
    The heat is on it's a Saturday night
    Why can't find the feeling
    So much sexual peeling
    Looking for my mister right
    The one that want to hold me tight
    Cause I just find the feeling
    Sexual healing
    I can fight it
    Tell me I'm a asking much
    I only want to feel the tender touch
    Coming like a wave tonight
    Going for the healing by my side
    All the back is hard to do
    Going for the feeling coming through
    You're the one that makes me burn
    Going for the point of no return
    It's a fighter
    A desire
    Can get it out tonight
    And I want it
    Cause I feel it
    Burning deep inside

    Just the way I can hide it
    Oh baby I can move on
    So I just let it show
    Oh baby I can fight it
    Just the way I can hide it
    Oh baby I can move on
    So I just let it show
    I can fight it
    Oh baby I can move on
    It's a fighter
    A desire
    Can get it out tonight
    And I want it
    Cause I feel it
    Burning deep inside

    Just the way I can hide it
    Oh baby I can move on
    So I just let it show
    Oh baby I can fight it
    Just the way I can hide it
    Oh baby I can move on
    So I just let it show
    I can fight it
    Oh baby I can move on
    I can fight it

     

     

    July 20

    ego dystonic

    life is perfect bk at hm. totally self-centered n' egonism.
    m standing on the centre of the circle, the whole world is turnning around me.
    finally know how good that feels when bk on the stage with all others' full attention.
    this is not actually the first time i felt this way. the feeling is so familiar to me that i can barely forget.
    but thats was a story beginning with once upon a long long time ago.
    everything is well orgnized; everything seems methodical being w/ my family n' my dear friends.
    just, when I was enjoy myself in the happiness, I started thinking about you.
    I was always being greedy. ever comes to this time, w/o exceptional, i ll ask for sth more.
    I was imagining u were somewhere around sharing the happy time together w/ me.
    I was wondering about ur facial expressions and those words u would say to me if u were truely there.
    delusion or illusion? either makes no difference.
    I know thats all daydreamy.
    I told myself thats way too extravagant n' commanded to stop from fantasizing the fantasy.
    u got the count down on the msn, yes one month to go.
    everyone can kill a month easily by just snapping the fingers. time passes by as fast as nothing ever happened.
    but for ppl who r waiting, one month is always interminable n' is really killing them.
    want to go bk so bad.
    m absolutely not a home sick person.
    I guess my current life is  too routinized that m not really used to. kinda miss the restraintless life in NY.
    but once comming to the point being apart w/ my family, I will even grudge a second.
    a hybrid,ego dystonic.
    July 18

    disappointed

    did something freaking stupid.
    why am I still so naive after all those...?
    but I cant find any point that I did wrong to make others misunderstood.
    or maybe I should just 180' turn around my altitude, when dealing w/ those who I dont really familiar w/, to make myself clear?
    really dont want to agree that everyone has the dark side humanness.
    but as time pass by, this seems to be proved ture.
     
    July 14

    I meant it

    "when made a habit of being transcendent."
    I never expected to hear this motto again years after. Couldn't remeber when was the first time I occasionally heard about this saying. but now m wandering, how many years exactly does it require one to be qualified obtaining such a habit.
    seems going to be really long.
    not everyone is innate genius, but ppl do fight about becomming one of  those talents.
    most ppl look back days; greats forcus on the present; those elites are always on their way pursuing, meanwhile achieving their next target in line.
    I seldom had anything hard to be attained though out my past 20 yrs.
    It is just time to set up myself a target n' I guess there is no other way to achieve the goal but go for it.

    indebted

    feel m a lucky piece.
    Is thes all designed by destiny?
    If so,please forgive my avarice ,
    let me seize this underlying divine fortune once more...
    Fortune favors those who are well prepared
     
    July 07

    Insomnia

    Its currently 3:00 in the morning n' m still awake. ( oops, I didnt know its already this late until I typed this line.)
    After kept turning over on the bed for an hour, I decided to sit up n' to update my blog which I havent  been taking care for a while.
    I was kinda "surprised" when clicking on the "Add" button that I havent done anything new for almost 3 months trace back to the time I posted my last blog.
    I waked up at 7:30am yesterday, took a 6hr-long GRE class n' then my body building course. I never expected to be such energetic n' conscious after all these. I should be exausted n' dead sleep on the bed at this time.
    this Insomnia frustrated me, it happens for no reason since I know I have to wake up  in 3 n' half short hrs.
    when had trouble falling asleep, I went browsing on the youtube. god damn it they blocked from watching through the youtube in china. youku is obviously way too tacky from youtube. but still, better than nothing at the very least.
     
    Just One Last Dance, the song m listening now.
     
    another 20 mins just lapsed away, I still got no feeling to go sleeping...
    Insomnia again, what's next?
    April 15

    天亮了……

    听酷狗,听到了韩红的美丽的神话。
    高中的回忆一段一段,一片一片,支离破碎地拼凑出完完整整的一整张在我脑海里一遍一遍地转。想要记得的,想要忘记的,一直都记得的,几乎淡忘的,还有以为自己已经忘记的,不受支配地一齐涌来。心里面一阵一阵的酸,一阵阵的发热,直到脑子发苏……闭上眼睛就是一幅幅的画面,好难受。
    不记得到底是高二还是高三是看的神话了,电影留下的印象是在不深,但偏偏喜欢这首歌。
    在youtube上找clip,看到有人把歌名翻译成"myth of the beauty",一怔,和我这么多年的理解不一样, 无论是他对了还是我对了,神话之所以美丽因为它是神话,不真实。不真实的东西不需要解释,欣赏就好,欣赏不了,就忘记吧。
     
    playlist跳到了下一首,还是韩红的,"天亮了".想起了你们,想起了那个合唱节,想起了……太多,太多……
     
    天真的亮了……
    March 21

    To 11

    苏格拉底:“孩子,为什么悲伤?”

    MZ:              “11,为什么悲伤?”

    失恋者:“我失恋了。”

    11:           “我追不到妞”

    苏格拉底:“哦,这很正常。如果失恋了没有悲伤,恋爱大概也就没有什么味道了。可是,年轻人,我怎么发现你对失恋的投入甚至比你对恋爱的投入还要倾心呢?”

    MZ:              “哦,这很正常。如果追不到妞还快乐的话,那是神经不正常。可是,11,我怎么发现你对人家不跟你的抱怨甚至比检讨自己还要倾心呢?”

    失恋者:“到手的葡萄给丢了,这份遗憾,这份失落,您非个中人,怎知其中的酸楚啊。”

    11:           “可望而不可及的葡萄,这份没面子,这份不甘,您非个中人,怎知其中的窝囊啊。”

    苏格拉底:“丢了就丢了,何不继续向前走去,鲜美的葡萄还有很多。”

    MZ:              “不可及了就不可及了,何不继续锁定下一目标,反正你可望不可即对你来说早已不是一两次的事了。”

    失恋者:“我要等到海枯石烂,直到他回心转意向我走来。”

    11:           “我要死缠烂打,直到她从了我。”

    苏格拉底:“但这一天也许永远不会到来。”

    MZ:              “但那除非是她脑子坏掉了。”

    失恋者:“那我就用自杀来表示我的诚心。”

    11:           “那我就用钱砸死她展现我的魅力。”

    苏格拉底:“如果这样,你不但失去了你的恋人,同时还失去了你自己,你会蒙受双倍的损失。”

    MZ:              “如果这样,你不但得不到你喜欢的人,同时赔了钱财,人家不接受,你还会被称为傻逼。”

    失恋者:“您说我该怎么办?我真的很爱他。”

    11:               “为什么啊?我觉得用钱一定搞得定女人啊。”

    苏格拉底:“真的很爱他?那你当然希望你所爱的人幸福?”

    MZ:              “你真的喜欢她?那你希望她快乐咯?”

    失恋者:“那是自然。”

    11:           “理论上是的。”

    苏格拉底:“如果他认为离开你是一种幸福呢?”

    MZ:              “如果她觉得你不烦她才能快乐呢?” 

    失恋者:“不会的!他曾经跟我说,只有跟我在一起的时候,他才感到幸福!”

    11:           “我操,不可能!她以前说过,我这人挺逗的!”

    苏格拉底:“那是曾经,是过去,可他现在并不这么认为。”

    MZ:              “那是以前,你们是朋友,现在她就不这么认为了。”

    失恋者:“这就是说,他一直在骗我?”

    11:           “这就是说,她们骗我?”

    苏格拉底:“不,他一直对你很忠诚的了。当他爱你的时候,他和你在一起,现在他不爱你,他就离去了,世界上再也没有比这更大的忠诚。如果他不再爱你,却要装着对你很有感情,甚至跟你结婚、生子,那才是真正的欺骗呢。”

    MZ:              “不,他们都没骗你,当你们是朋友的时候,她确实觉得你人挺逗的。现在你死缠烂打,她就不想招惹你了,世界上没有比这更直白的了。如果她烦你,还说觉得你很逗,甚至讨好你,敷衍你,那才是真正的在骗你呢。”

    失恋者:“可是,他现在不爱我了,我却还苦苦地爱着他,这是多么不公平啊!”

    11:           “可是,他不喜欢我,爷还苦苦追她,这多没面子啊!”

    苏格拉底:“的确不公平,我是说你对所爱的那个人不公平。本来,爱他是你的权利,但爱不爱你则是他的权利,而你想在自己行使权利的时候剥夺别人行使权利的自由,这是何等的不公平!”

    MZ:              “的确没面子,我是说对你所追的那个人不公平。本来,喜欢她是你的权利,但是喜欢不喜欢你就是她的权利了,而你想因为你想追她就强求她喜欢你,这样她不是很没面子。” 

    失恋者:“依您的说法,这一切倒成了我的错?”

    11:           “这么说来,这都是我的错咯?”

    苏格拉底:“是的,从一开始你就犯错。如果你能给他带来幸福,他是不会从你的生活中离开的,要知道,没有人会逃避幸福。”

    MZ:              “没错,从头就是你的错。如果你一向在碧儿恩心目中印象很好,她就不会这么抵触你了,要知道,没有人会拒绝nice guy的。”

    失恋者:“可他连机会都不给我,您说可恶不可恶?”

    11:           “她还都没有给我机会证明我是一个nice guy,农村人就是万恶。” 

    苏格拉底:“当然可恶。好在你现在已经摆脱了这个可恶的人,你应该感到高兴,孩子。”

    MZ:              “当然万恶,要不怎么叫女人呢。好在你本来就没什么人性,你应该感到高兴11。”

    失恋者:“高兴?怎么可能呢,不过怎么说,我是被人给抛弃了。”

    11:           “高兴?我一直不都很高兴吗?我就是追不到哦啊妞啊。”

    苏格拉底:“时间会抚平你心灵的创伤。”

    MZ:              “时间会使你慢慢淡祛。”

    失恋者:“但愿我也有这一天,可我第一步应该从哪里做起呢?”

    11:           “但愿吧,可我第一步就是想要追到个妞啊。”

    苏格拉底:“去感谢那个抛弃你的人,为他祝福。”

    MZ:              “去感激每个拒绝你的人,祝福她们。” 

    失恋者:“为什么?”

    11:           “啊?我有病?”

    苏格拉底:“因为他给了你忠诚,给了你寻找幸福的新的机会。”

    MZ:              “因为她们跟你说了实话,给了你寻找真正欣赏你的妞的机会。”

    March 10

    reminder

    so many to do things in mind during  these a few days.
    do feel that I need to write myself a reminder or sth in case i forget one or more of them.
    m so tired, my eyes r keep closing... guess its time to go to bed...
    good nit everyone
    March 03

    Innocence

     
    Waking up I see that everything is ok
    The first time in my life and now it's so great
    Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
    I think about the little things that make life great
    I wouldn't change a thing about it
    This is the best feeling
    
    This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
    This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
    And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
    
    I found a place so safe, not a single tear
    The first time in my life and now it's so clear
    Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
    It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
    I wouldn't change a thing about it
    This is the best feeling
    
    This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
    This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
    And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by
    
    It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
    It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
    It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
    
    It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
    It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
    It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
    
    It's so beautiful it makes you want to cry
    
    This innocence is brilliant (It makes you want to cry)
    This innocence is brilliant
    Please don't go away 'cause I need you now and I'll hold on to it
    Don't you let it pass you by
    (It's so beautiful it makes you want to cry)
    
    This innocence is brilliant (It's so beautiful)
    I hope that it will stay (It's so beautiful)
    This moment is perfect
    Please don't go away
    I need you now and I'll hold on to it (It makes me want to cry) 
    Don't you let it pass you by